What is the main concern?
Hmm. I smell a change in the air.
Having serious thoughts of changing my job. Like I mentioned before, it is not -bad-, rather comfortable but it CAN be better in certain aspects.
I love my little cubicle and the personal touches I made. I am used to the quirks of my colleagues and the way things are 'operated'.
I'm not very happy with the money but recent times have me start thinking about change. What is it am I resisting? The lack of self-believe that I can make it ... the fear of new environment... the idea of just CHANGE (aka resistance).
I read this book before, called Who Moved My Cheese? I remembered liking the motto and the whole in-the-nutshell stuff. It's easy to appreciate the words but to put it to action is another matter altogether.
Then I remembered my morbid post (in Jan I think) and I thought.. if I don't move now, when am I going to.. how long am I going to complain about the low salary and what-ifs.. if I have more, then I can do xyz.. sort of thinking. And I re-read my post about how short life is and the idea of death looming around.
So is that it? I'm going to fear changes and thus stick to one place so I am comforted and just live my life on hopes. Oh dear.. that doesn't sound too good to me.
Why am I beating myself up so badly.. am I that lousy that I can't survive in another place.. how would I know if I don't try. I may end up flourishing but it can't get -worse- can it.
It's a risk but there seems to be more excitement in it now (in my eyes) rather than despair and fear. Perhaps time has changed my outlook.
Interesting times ahead.























